Today I am thankful.
I don’t reserve gratitude for this one day a year, but this year I feel especially thankful on this day.
I am thankful to hear my brother’s voice and laugh – I love that laugh. I can pick up the phone whenever I think about him and hear that voice. It’s such a small thing, but all things considered, it’s the best blessing I can think of. I came very close to losing him in a car accident in August. Most of the time I feel lucky that is still here with us. Sometimes I give in to the thoughts of what could have happened and what this holiday season and every day after would have been for my family. I try to avoid giving those thoughts too much real estate in my mind, but it’s impossible to quiet them completely. Hearing his voice helps.
I am thankful for the time we spent together as a family during the months of recovery. It’s been 9 years since we’ve all lived in the same state, and the few weekends a year we got together just weren’t enough. The weekend before the accident we got together for a long overdue weekend together in Dallas. It was such a fun time, and we parted ways with talk of how nice it would be to do that more often. The next weekend our world turned upside down, and it’s slowly righted itself over time. We came out of it with a greater appreciation for how delicate life is and we are even closer than before. For that I will always be thankful.
I am thankful for the friends in my life, some who I see often and others who are on my mind often. I am blessed to have so many people who chose to let me into their lives.
I am thankful for home. I just finished a Stephen King book, Revival, and this line stuck with me: “Home is where they want you to stay longer.” I have several places that I think of as home, but the original is Iowa. In thinking of that home, I realized that King left out an important part of his observation: home is also the place that keeps your heart even when you’re not there. I’m thankful for all the people there who will hold onto it for me, like an e.e. cummings poem:
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
There are so many more things for which I’m thankful, but for nothing more than the people in my life.
I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving with those you love.